When she saw that she was stedfastly minded to go with her, then she left speaking unto her.
This is the story of Ruth and Naomi. Ruth entreats Naomi to not send her away. The
scripture show that Naomi realizes it is futile to try and talk Ruth out of it so Naomi stops
trying.
I have been thinking a lot about selfishness and unselfishness today. I wonder where the line is
that separates the two. As a mother I have spent countless nights awake or awaken taking care of
babies, dogs and husbands. I also remember trying so hard to get a little extra sleep on Sundays just so
I could make it through the week and yet the kids didn't want to let me. Now I stay up til my husband
gets home but I have to get up early for my own things, like work. I really know what burning the candle
at both ends means now. Last night I went to bed before Michael got home. I was sound asleep when he
got home. I did wake up enough to say to him something about you are home safe and sound. I
immediately went back to sleep. This morning Michael apparently was feeling the lack of time
we communicate when he gets home because he kept talking and talking to me as I was trying to
get ready for work.
I feel tired a lot because of this sleep schedule. I don't get much done when I get off work because I am so
tired but I also don't feel sleepy enough to get a nap.
Actually my thoughts of unselfishness were of other things because I was frustrated and annoyed. I wonder
if my annoyance would have been abaited if I had more sleep.
I do have a problem feeling guilty because I do things for myself. That is probably why I have never had a
manicure or pedicure. My self treats have always been food or liquid because they are cheap. I am
good about moderation though. I rarely even finish off a whole box of cookies or pizza unless I am really
that hungry.
(An aside: The blogger formatting is off tonight so I have to actually hit the enter key to move to the
next line. It reminds me of the old typewriter my mom had where when we get to the end of the line
we had to hit the bar across the top to move the barrel over to start a new line. Yeah I am that old.)
But here is my final thought; I see in the world where we are told to indulge ourselves. Again moderation
is the key. But I see as people go past sacrificing to achieve things or adquire things the more removed
they become from understanding the sacrifice our Savior made for us. Like my philosophy teacher
said in college about parents it is true for the Savior as well. Because they sacrificed so much we as
children or followers can never really catch up to the amount. We will always be indepted.
Just a thought...
PS I cannot make changes to this document in the spell check. Something is up with this posting. Please forgive my misspellings.
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